"Blind leading the Blind"

It was time for God to intervene in my life. Clearly, Jim and I were the "Blind leading the Blind". There comes a time when the Lord will challenge you to give HIM what means most to you. For some, this requires giving him your heart, and for others it requires giving him your Life.  It is typical to hold on to what we desire, and give the Lord what we dont want.  I had come to a place where I had to let go of what was holding me. At this time of my life it was my faith my family and some of my worldly ways.  This reminds me of the story in Mark 14:3, the woman who willingly gave up her Alabaster box. This was an ultimate sacrifice. Who knows what the woman went through to have this box. This unique box came out of brokenness, bondage and misery but made it all the way to Bethany to be broken at the feet of Jesus.  I needed to come out of egypt and leave the only piece of evidence that signified that I was in bondage. I had to break my box and give God the ultimate sacrifice, MY LIFE.

As God began to impress upon my heart to live for him, I began asking him how?  First, Jim and I had to make some decisions regarding our relationship. We were living together, but knew we needed to be married or live in separate homes.  Jim surprised me oneday with family and my children present, with an engagement ring. I was so excited, I was in love with him and wanted to be his wife.  Prior to the engagement, our relationship was being tested. One of the problems we faced was a secret that Jim held from me. By the time he shared the secret with me, I was already head over heels in love with him!  I was thinking no matter what it is I am going to stick by him.  Little did I know what this would entail! He shared with me in his exact words, "I've dibbled and dabbled in drugs". The drug of choice was Crack Cocaine!  Now, again I came from a very strict up bringing, very sheltered and naive, no one in my immediate family or circle of friends drank liqueur or used any drugs to my knowledge. At the time I was not aware of the kind of effects crack cocaine had on individuals. I encouraged him to stop using this drug because it would not be pleasing to me, more importantly, God.  Jim promised me that he would never do drugs again and we would live a happy married life. I did not know that this drug was an addictive substance, or that it was a stronghold, and needless to say, a demonic spirit that was trying to take hold of his life and destiny.

  Although I was aware of the secret we proceeded to plan our wedding.   Unfortunately, I did not have any family members that attended the ceremony. Surprisingly, I was okay. Most of Jims family attended, and it was a blessed occasion.  Shortly after we were married, we were looking for a church to join. We visited several churches, but to no avail.  Jim's mother would call every Sunday after attending her church in Bloomfield CT, she would tell us how awesome the Word and teaching was, she began to pray for us to relocate to Conneticut and become members of her Church.  Being newly saved, and newlyweds, it was vital that we get into a bible based church, a deliverance Ministry. The name of the church was Full Gospel Foundation Building ministries. It was of Apostolic faith, full of the Holy Spirit, and Jesus Christ was the Chief Corner Stone of the Church.  Yes, this is what we needed.  However, there was one problem. In my previous divorce decree we shared custody of our daughters, therefore, neither parent could not move out of the state of California, if any one chose to move, no one was allowed to take the children and the other parent would have full custody.  Of course I refuse to leave without my kids. We had a conversation with Jim's mother, I told her moving was not an option.  Her answer was simply  "Pray about it". I did pray. This was an amazing encounter I experienced,  pray, then watch God's power work.  I called the kids father, while being nervous, I shared with him my desire for me and our daughters to move to Conneticut,  Without any hesitation he said "Yes" I was shocked!  I could not believe what I was hearing. We worked out all the preliminaries in writing regarding visitation, child support, etc, and literally within one month we were moving to Conneticut. I know this was God's will for our life. I know my ex-husband and how much he loved his daughters and wanted them to be close to him. It was a supernatural move of God on my behalf for him to say "Yes". I give God all the glory.
 
The start of a christian life is the acceptance of the Lord Jesus Christ as one's personal savior.  After this initial confession, a process of deliverance begins.  We have a right to be completely set free and walk in the righteousness of God. Joel 2:32 says, "And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord, shall be Delivered".  Moving to Conneticut  was an open door for the power of God to reign in our lives and guide us into our destiny through deliverance.