Who am I?

Direction will not be made clear until you seek God's wisdom and desire for you.

 After having my two daughters, there was something on the inside of me that was searching for who I was.  I had many dreams and aspirations, yet I had to put them on hold to care for my two daughters?  Someone may ask, why should having children put your dreams on hold?  I wanted be the best mom and wife I could be. Still, I was empty on the inside.  When my baby was about 3-4 years old, things  began to change.

I remember looking in the mirror and I saw a person that I did not like.  I was over weight,  depressed and confused,  wondering who am I, and where my life going.  I remember thinking okay, I am serving God with my family, I preach door to door like I am told to do, I have my Husband, my kids and our home, what more could I ask for.  Not one time did I turn to God and ask "Who am I"?  What is your will for my life. I thought  I was doing his will....being a good Mom and Wife.  

This is when I said, I got it, I need to lose weight!  At this point of my search for who I am, I thought I hit the Jackpot!

  I ran into a very good friend of mine one day and she looked amazing!  I inquired and asked her, How much weight she'd lost and how did she do it?  She told me 80lbs, and shared with me exactly what she did.  She would even invite me to the gym.  My first day at the gym was so exciting, until she said; GET ON THE SCALE.
  
Well, I was a whopping 220lbs!  That day my life was changed forever!